So recently an ex of mine came back into my life and I feel like I'm back to the same old bull again with him. Its like he got freaked out again and left for the third time.
I mean if you say you love someone and care about 'em, don't you show it!? Not get up and leave with no warning? Well I guess he does.
I just want to be loved back with no false words.
"I loved you, and would have gave you the world, you know that right?"
"It was hard for both of us, but your right we both have changed and we need to learn who each other are and learn to love again."
Its things like that which make me angry right now. I just want answers and truth. Why can't he just grow a pair and speak up? If he didn't want to try again, then why did he agree to with me? Its simple things like agreeing when you don't think you can, just frustrate me at the end of the day.
I know its only been three days, but the last two times, all it took was 24-48 hrs for him to just go *poof!* on me.
I guess I'm emotionally tired of everything and wish for once to have someone or thing in my life not yank on my heart string and just give me some relief that I can depend on being there for me no matter what is happening. I just need to breathe, because it always feels like I'm being strangled here for the last four years of my life.
*sigh* I just need a break from everything before I explode inside...
